lesson learneded....

My grandpa is dying. My grandma is dying. So what lesson could I possibly learn from that. We all die. We have to.

I have to teach my relief society tomorrow. I learned if I show up to relief society they will ask you teach...hence I have not been back since. Kidding. But I have thought about it.

I was asked to teach from the talk by Jeffrey R Holland, "Safety for the Soul" from this past conference. It is a very good talk. He discusses the fear we may have in the world concerning the last days but takes it to a personal level and that there is where the fear should lie. He then reassures us that we have a Father in Heaven that already knows these dangers and troubles of the heart and through his disciples and scriptures gives us counsel and protections regarding them. He goes on to talk about Lehi's dream and the comforts of knowing we have an 'iron rod' to cling to.

Is the world a God awful place that the end is near and the fire and brimstone are knocking at our very door step? NO. The lesson I learned tonight is this: My grandpa is dying. My grandma is dying. How is this a lesson? My grandpa has cancer again. This time there's nothing we can do but manage it until he goes. He's also in heart failure and is retaining water. As I sat there tonight rubbing his poor swollen feet I couldn't help but think of a conversation I had with him over a month ago. That night the nurse told us he was in heart failure and that his blood pressure was to low to do anything but make him comfortable to die. It was a little rough hearing that. More for me watching my mom's heart break. But the conversation that came next is something that I'll never forget. He sat there with Bishop Jenkins and said: "I'm not afraid. I've had a good life. I love my wife and my kids and I loved the chance the Lord has given me to be hear and to get see the things He's let me see. I got to go to Belize, Honduras, Alaska, and Europe. I've been able to overcome many different illnesses. It's been a good life. I've gotten to work to provide a life for my family, serve a mission with my wife, serve in the church and meet some good people. The Lord has blessed me all my life. It was a good life." The most amazing statement to me was even though he though he might die he still made sure his tithing was paid. That was most important to him.

My Grandpa converted to the Church in the 40s and has before that day and since that day tried live by the Lord through the knowledge that he has gained. The lesson I learned tonight was the promptings of the spirit that gingerly reminded me of the loving example of both my grandparents. He's not afraid. She's not afraid. They don't care about the world around them. They have lived for the world they've created in their home. They are aware of what's going on and have done their civic duty when asked upon. My grandmother kept them in tune to the spirit and made sure she taught with love and a wooden spoon. :) They've been through the Great Depression and have seen technology that they thought would never happen. And yet as they reach their 'last days' how ever long that will be. The each know through the fullness of the gospel they will be together forever and this is only the beginning.

I just want to say how grateful I am for the opportunity to be here and that I was fortunate enough to grow up next door to them. Some family members think Carlsbad is the armpit of the world but really it's where they live. They don't have the relationship that I got to have with grandma and grandpa. Carlsbad is hell for me because of another reason. The reason I can say I love this place is because of my grandparents and my parents. They have taught the world is as bad a place as I look for it to be or it's the best time of my life. That one day I'll be able say I've 'lived a good life.'

Thank you grandpa and grandma for a lifetime of love, near death experiences, memories and teaching me about angels. I'll never be able to eat apricot jelly sandwiches or french toast or microwave a scorpion without thinking and giggling about you. Also I hope, grandma, that I get to cuss and say it was what the dog said. I really do look forward to blaming my cussing on the dog. I love you and hope I grow up to be just like you.

hmmm...

So let's see what's been goin on around here... Sean is in a preschool/daycare and loves it! Although if you ask him he he wants to go to school he starts to cry. hahaha Once he gets there it's a different story. He loves all the kids and is always talking about 'his kids' actually he says 'my kids.' He's a very social boy when it comes to meeting and talking to new kids. His nursery teachers and school teachers all say the same thing. He's well behaved and is always walking up to kids to play with them and offer whatever toy he's got. He's such a funny kid and so talkative. I LOVE IT! He's addicted to Spongebob and Caillou these days. He also follows uncle Mikey or my dad outside helping them 'fix' things. Don't worry he's still crazy about super heros and still refers to me as 'Mary Jane' and 'Pepper Pots' as well as 'Gwen' from BEN10.

As far as me and that guy I married. We made it as far as Carlsbad and got stuck here probably for forever. While I hate being here and there are a handful of reasons why but it's not something worth talking about. BUT I love being around my mom and I love my friends at church and so its bearable. I got a job as a teller and bookkeeper for my mom's business. Travis is cooking and prep for my mom's restaraunt and catering co. My mom keeps him pretty busy. He's happy because he loves it and loves working with my mom. So life is good? ha we'll see.


this is a typical seany face....he always makes this face as when you're trying to tell him something. it's almost like he's mocking you...

Here's 3 of the 4.5 grandbabies. aren't they sweet? yeah until all 3 start to fight over the same thing!

Proof that white trash is hereditary!

Ok so every kid is different. Every kid learns different. Every kid needs his or her own motivator to get them to do what you want. In the potty training of The Sean it was praise. I have no idea why. But HEY, it works. He has to tell every one " I DID IT!" He just eats up the attention he's gotten. Seany prefers to pee outside. He loves to 'free ball' it too as you can tell by the pic below. After he's pulled the ultimate male thing(pee off a porch) he raises his arms as if to say "well? where's my praise?" and makes the funniest face. i've tried to catch that on camera but i'm always to late and if he sees the camera he makes the face in the bottom pic.

As you can see he doesn't like gettin his pic takin while he's doin his bidness. lol This pics says to me "Mom, i'm really disappointed in you right now!"

A funny side note is my dad's favorite story about Sean in this whole training process. Sean's first poop in the potty(thankfully he hasn't fully crapped his pants) was interesting to say the least. Once he was done he looked down and said, "Oh! I pooped a snake!" oh how i love the sweet innocence of children. i know when i tell travis that i pooped a snake he just gets grossed out instead of finding it cute and funny. Then again i don't think travis running around nekked with sean yellin "Nekked daddy!" while sean yells, "Nekked SEANY!!" is very cute either.

p.s. as i was posting this sean saw his nekked pic and said " look at me peein." hahahaha

pics finally!

super uncle michael and batman sean!

sleeping dragons...

uncle michael and sean watching batman on the laptop

my little thug!

Thug LIFE!!!

I done did it!!

ok first sorry it's been so long. my 3 readers i'm sure have moved on but here i am if you still want me.

So here's what we've been up to:

I'm gonna start and work my way backwards.

SEANY is POTTY TRAINED!
well i like to think so. he's been accident free since tuesday and it's been fairly easy. we started tuesday and he didn't take to it very well until he learned he could go outside. once that happened he'll now only pee outside. he'll poo in the potty but no pee. it's funny cuz he has to tell everyone: "i did it!! WHOO HOO!" and that's been his only motivation. no bribes. nothin but praise. now i just have to figure out how to get him to pee in the potty. i don't want his first day of school to be "teacher, i need to go outside" and have him go back in and yell "I DID IT!" It feels so good to be out of diapers! i still have to wipe ass but it's not as bad and sean'll catch on soon i hope.

Grandpa Buckner has Cancer...again
grandpa had stomach cancer 6 years ago and here in carlsbad they said he only had 2 months to live. well the huntsman center in salt lake basically threw out the dr.'s prognosis, removed 2/3 of his stomach and made history for his age and health and overcoming this cancer. well about 2 months ago my mom noticed he was not eating and then he said that it hurt when he ate and that he was having some mild pain around his lower belly. well we took him to the dr. and after a scan and some tests he again had cancer. he had spots on his liver and lymph nodes. again they said he only had a short time to live. they didn't even bother to find out what type it was. it makes me wonder how many people have died because dr.s don't care. well we sent him to utah again and they were pretty excited because he being 93 is charting new territory for cancer patients. he is in such perfect health and he's their first and so they have no one to compare him to in a sense as to how any treatment would be on him. they diagnosed him with Adeno Carcinoma(sp? i'm not sure.) it is a cancer that attacks soft tissue. while it is terminal and we can't cure it is slow growing and the best treatment is actually diet. so essentially we've put him on the "RAW" diet to get his body ph balance and go from there. he said "You know i never gelt like have a short time left. I have faith in my body that i can get my strength back from this." which is interesting coming from a 93 yr old. but as righteous as he i'm sure he'll decide when he's ready to go.

We Made it as far as Carlsbad...
kinda grouchy about that. what keeps me from being completely grouchy is i'm here because my mother needs me. one thing that i love about my family is that we'll do anything for and will be there for one another. knowing my mother's growing business was taking her over and the stress of my grandmother with Alzheimer's and grandfather with cancer she was starting to sink. not financially but emotionally and physically. so we're here til she doesn't need us anymore. so she can breathe. i love her and will put off my whole world to give her even a moments rest from the her daunting life right now. i know she knows i love her but sometimes the only way i can repay her for always being so good to me and others is to show her. so carlsbad sucks, my in-laws suck worse here and i hate being here but i'm glad to be out of phoenix and glad i could be here for my mother.

PICS!!!!

ok so maybe tomorrow. it won't let my upload them so i'll try tomorrow. SORRY!

oh mary!!!

I JUST WANTED TO POST SO EVERYONE WILL KNOW!!!! MARY, YOU ARE ONE OF MY MOST FAVORITE FAMILY MEMBERS! it is a hoot to hang around you! it's in all caps so to look as if i'm yelling it out to everyone! hahahaha that's for you! so now can i see that pic? pretty please!

oh yeah....

So I got to thinking that I didn't want to live in AZ anymore. Also I didn't want Travis to have to be waiting for 2 years to get into the Physical Therapy Assisting program here. So I got to looking around and making some phone calls. One of the places that I was looking into for Physician Assisting was Texas Tech. Their PA program is in Odessa, TX at their Health Science Center. Well Odessa also has a college that offers the PTA program for Travis. So I called down there to figure out tuition and GI Bill stuff and what the wait would be. Well the Academic advisor said he could get in next fall. Also Texas is one of the few states that the new Chapter 33 GI Bill pays the most. AND best of all they still consider us NM residents and we got in-state tuition! NICE! So we are now moving to Odessa Texas! It'll be nice being only 3 hours from my parents and 6 hrs to San Antonio my two favorite places. Although I'm not a fan of tornadoes and flat lands with no wind break. I think I'll live getting to achieve my goal( being a PA) and helping Travis to achieve his(being the first EVER in his family to graduate college). So Peace out Arizona! :)

Fun time in New Mexico? sorta....

So I sent Travis and Sean to New Mexico for 3 weeks without me. I met up with them and the Buckners at my grandparents 70th wedding anniversary/ reunion. It was alright. I got to see some of the family I wanted but my favs that I was hoping came didn't so I was a little bummed. Sorry it turned into an almost disappointment....BUT I still had a good time with the favs. :) Here is from our scenic canoe ride. LOL Trav and I and my big bro and his wife went up and down the Black river. It was a hoot as we laugh and watch Jamie and Goga bicker.

The lovely wildlife we came across....like hundreds of turtles.

Captain Travis bossin us around.

Jamie and Goga right before we headed out.

The Amazon!!!! lol

I tried....

Us before we got on the boats...don't we look ready to go?

Princess Kiera tossing rocks in the river! Sean and her fight over stuff a lot so he's not there in order to keep the peace. It's hilarious to watch them battle!!! When he chases her after stuff he shoots 'webbing'(which is really him just making the sound and the hand gestures that spiderman does) thinking it will stop her! I tried to get it on camera but it didn't work out. Next time I'll be sure to catch it because I know better now! hahahaha

Sorry I didn't take many pics. actually these are the only ones I took. Just wasn't feelin it this time. oh well! I'll live!

when all is quiet all through out....

First off! LOOK AT THAT TAN LINE! all from swimming everyday after work! What a tiny little butt butt too!

So things were nice a quiet at the house and i was pleased that sean was happily playing on his own which allowed me to watch my shows....well when it's too quiet it's too quiet. Am I right? Well i was right. he had gotten my concealer and went to town on his face. He said he was painting his face light spiderman. LOL oh well! Laugh it off right? hahahahaha

the day in the life of a budding super hero!

So Sean is way into super heros. Bethy bought a superman onesie and of course Sean had to wear it. here he is wearing it of which he needed a mask to go with his outfit. my favorite is when he puts on the mask he asks "Where Seany?" and then lifts the mask and says "Here i am!" also when he puts the mask back on he says in his "deep" raspy voice "I'm BATMAN!" He's way better than any marine i've met!! lol

Here we are goin to check the mail. he insisted on wearing his "outfit" because he wanted to go fight bad guys. so i guess he is doing us a service by going out and risking his life so that we can go check out mail without the termoil of evil hovering around us.

I guess i should thank him. I did manage to check the mail without any trouble. LOL

notice where he's placed the mask.

Tell me that's not the cutest thing ever! I love it!

thanks fake flu! it was fun!

So this past weekend i got to go on a kid free, husband free, FREE cruise weekend with my sister and friend Stacey. We were supposed to go to Ensenada(sp?) Mexico but because of that H1N1 crap we got to go from Long Beach to Catalina Island. Now that's fine. it just sucked cuz catalina is like 45 min from Long Beach.LOL i know! they had to stretch a 3 day cruise around a 45 minute boat ride. So we cirlced around a bit. hahahahaha it was fun still. The crappy part was actually when we had to get off. it was a 2 hour wait gettin through customs even though we never left the US. Ridiculous!!!! the highlight of that trip though was we got tickets to Six Flags Magic Mountain for 25 bucks! In case you were wondering......YES IT WAS AWESOME!!!!!!!! Except when stacey barfed on the riddler ride and some of it got on me.....gag! yeah when you're strapped in you can't run from it! it reminded me of when my friend Marcy and I went to Lagoon with the Tylers and one of the Tylers barfed on a kiddy ride. lol so here are a few pics from my trip....


Me at the bottom of Wrigley monument.....yeah the gum guy owned the island...

My towel dog....i'm totally talented at that whole towel animal thing.

Me right before dinner.....don't i look like a 50s mom? lol

typical Bethy.

Loved to just relax and listen to my ipod and watch the ocean.

Ready to tour it up at catalina!

Don't you just love my new hair do? I know i do do!!!! lol

so mary knows i read and lurv her! lol

so my adoring aunt mary posted this from an article she read in magazine show casing high school kids....this is her twist and she tagged all that were followers of her blog. since i am and feel like i need to boost her self esteem. here i go! this is for you mary! hahaha

"Never Has Outgrown High School Student of the Year". These are the real, actual questions asked; "What is and or are your..."



1. Leadership style? FEAR! always by FEAR!!! yeah cuz i'm scary, no?



2. Lesson you learned in High School? you can't eat whatever you want anymore!



3. Stress buster? i've turned to running oddly enough or "America's funniest home videos"(although they should change it to canada's cuz that's who wins all the time!)



4. Favorite Sound? Sean's voice


5. Favorite Place to Eat? Cafe Rio's or Ztejas(sp?)



6. Most Influential Teacher? both my grandmas and mr. pagano-he opened whole new world of literature i still cherish even though it's been over 10 yrs since i had his class.



7. Friday Night Routine? redbox, sonic dr pepper and fighting sean for control of the tv! NO MORE SPIDERMAN!!!



8. IPOD favorites? i love it all! right now i'm coveting an ipod touch....ooooooooo how i want one!!!


9. Favorite Things About High School? band, football and basketball games and that's about it...i hate every minute of high school! so really i don't have any favorite things and i lied about the band and football/basketball games.



10. Common Closet Item? seany. he loves to hide in there



11. Bedroom Walls? white. it's an apartment and i don't decorate apts

12. Common Phrase Your Parents Say to You? Be GOOD!( say it now too...maybe they aren't as dumb as i once thought)



13. Reality Show You Are Most Likely To Be In? "hogan knows best" cuz i would tell his family I KNOW BEST! hahahahaha



14. Biggest Challenge? time management



15. Day You'll Remember From High School? i don't have a specific day. but every afternoon and evening i got to sit outside with grandma and grandpa...i'll cherish


16. Advice for Freshman? who cares what people think. get your education!


17. Future Plans? cruise in 10 days and then summer school in 2.5 weeks! that's as far as i get towards the future



18. How Will You Change The World? i already did....i brought sean into this world and i continue to feed and water him daily!


so there you go! ALL DONE!

I can't believe how cute my kid is!!!

Need i say more?? holy how i just love that kid!!!!! i sure know how to make'em! lol

ESSSCAAPPEEE to New Mexico!

I know i haven't posted any easter pics. that's because sean didn't spend easter with me. Bethy was driving to carlsbad and after weeks of begging and crying from my mom and bethy so i agreed to send him down there. I know i'm a terrible mom for not spending easter with my son but honestly i hate holidays and i have a bad attitude towards them and i'd rather he spend it with people that would make a big deal out of it. I know i'm terrible. anyways so i got to go down and help bethy drive back. instead of someone pick me up in el paso i got to fly on a CESNA! yeah one of those small planes!!! it was just me and the two pilots and one was my age and the other was 22!!! so yeah it was scary! Obviously i landed safely or else i wouldn't be here to write this but still! it actually wasn't to bad in the air but take off and landing was like a roller coaster! So here a few pics of our trip.


Carlo eating some very delicious river/moss rocks!

We Love the river!!!!

I love this pic! he's such a goofy kid!!

Ok so only us new mexicans in the middle of the desert would have a place called "the beach." it's a place they cleared off by the pecos river and put sand and called it a beach. lol but's it's awesome and not matter how dirty the water was it was a blast! Am I right buckner cousins? lol

Your typical boy throwing stuff in the river! lol

Popa playin with the babies! look at those ham hocks on Carlo!!!

Shadow puppets of Seany and Momma! days like that at the river make me miss carlsbad. i loved living by a river and gettin to swim and chill in the sun. I look forward to showing my kids the same places we used to go there and lettin him explore grandpa great's(my grandpa buckner) land and the 1/2 mile of river that's all ours. Good times.

JAM ja JAM ja JAM JAM JAM!mmmmmmmm

So last night i decided it was time to make jam. my mom and aunt make the best freezer jam. my aunt always sends me home with some everytime i visit her. *note to self: visit barbi more often* anyways i was there easter sunday to visit her son marcus who just got home from his mission and it was his homecoming. after much talk about canning (it is a goal of mine to do) i told here i was craving strawburry freezer jam. she told me it was easy and that's all it took. so for 6 bucks i made 9 jam jars and 4 freezer packs of strawburry jam....let me tell you it is delicious! WOOT! i'm so proud of my self. now so i can enjoy my jam i have to bake fresh bread.....let us see if that works cuz i'm not very good at it. lol anyways i just wanted to brag a little since i'm the very opposite of a handy homemaker. I don't sew, barely cook, and there are no crafts in my house! i burp, fart and scratch myself instead! lol so this is my one step closer to being a good ol' wife. Plus i'm strangely addicted to old school ways like canning and such. i feel it's a lost art. it's something i think would be cool to pass down to my daughters or since i'm only having the one kid maybe his wife would do it with me. :)

Let's DO THIS!! Am i weird?

Ok so i've fallen in love with 24 fitness classes. although i kinda fell off the wagan from sick kid to sick me and then lazy me. but i'm back on the horse. so i have this friend there. well actually she's not my friend yet becuase right now i'm in the stalking phase. i know ok! she has the body that i want!!! so i try to do what ever she does! lol i know ok!!! my friend nichole goes with me and she makes it way more fun and me less creepy. hahahaha i'm so addicted to the weights and SETS(aerobics with weights.) lately that's all i think about at work is how i could be doing that... oh and running. So if any of you wanna come and work out with me it's awesome. Nichole is moving to texas and so i'm gonna need a new work out buddy and it's too soon for the one i stalk there. lol the kids club is totally awesome and i am too! so let me know! hahaha

ALSO
So it's been a life long dream to be able to run more than say a 1/2 mile without dying and breathing so hard that i feel like i'm having an asmar attack. Lately all my friends have ran these half marathons and i thought what a good idea to do. they all did it why can't i, right? Marcy set me up with a training schedule and i've done real good sticking to it. i was neverous about being able to run at least a mile and now it's all cake! although i'm tired of running on a tread mill with all those farters and Indians(India ones, Natives don't come unless we pay for it! lol) those guys wreak! and i can't tell you how many times i'm gagged and laughed and tried to keep for barfing! And yes i'm the one that points it out to who ever farted! COME ON!!! at least do it by a fan so it quickly gets swept away! that's what i do and one time i thought the fan wasn't strong enough to push it away! lol i almost tripped off the tread mill while looking for an escape route! anyways i only do it cuz they do it and it serves them right thinking they can sneak one out! i'll make them pay!! lol
anyways the 1/2 marathon isn't til August and depending on how that one goes i'll run the Camp Pendleton one in Sept. i really only wanna run that one cuz the hot marines! I even plan on shaving my legs for that one! lol WoOt! WOOT!! wish me luck!

sorry only one hot firman per crew!

So last night i was lightly sleeping when i started to smell this burnt plastic smell. I laid there thinking what it could be and finally i got up to check things out. I thought that it a bag i left on the stove. so i got up and instead of checking the stove i immediately went out side. Yes in my garmies...i noticed smoke outside so i went back in grabbed a blanket and by then trav was wondering what i was doin. we both went out and yep lots of smoke.

trav went to the apt. below us cuz that's where we saw the smoke. he openned their laundry/storage room and all this smoke. As he went to getting them out i immediately put on close and grabbed sean and called 911.

Trav is using the fire extinguisher and the firemen show up. i'm not gonna lie i was really hoping for some real hot ones. i've seen them playing ultimate frisbee at the park like every day. Yeah i was excited. they get there and granted its 2:30 in the morning but still they were all old guys with guts. the only misterious one was this guy who was the only one in his gear. mask and all. everyone else was in their blue pants and polos. when it was all done get gets out of his outfit and BAM! IT'S A LOOKER! I then realized they hid him under all that heavy crap cuz they were jealous. he was the token hot guy! lol

anyways turns out the people below us overloaded their dryer and something caused to catch fire. so our apt stinks soooooo bad now of burnt plastic. we stayed our at a friends our house cuz it was so bad. today i've been fighting with the manager of the complex cuz she thinks the smell is not there. she came over to inspect the damage and said she didn't smell anything. it wasn't until i made a bunch of complaints and the cleaning crew for the apt below us came up and check it out that she believed what i was saying. so now i get my whole apt cleaned. carpets and all!!! WOOT WOOT!!!

so yeah i save lives and get things done! like gettin my place cleaned for FREE! lol

Some say white trash is a choice...i'm startin to think it's genetic!

The white trash is a Casey trait....mind you. It's genetic through Trav's family... my side has tendensies but we don't live by the "code" if you will....

So lately Sean has decided to go shirtless. It is always in the afternoon too. i don't understand. I thought i made the mistake of buying him this super heros shirt that he had to wear every day and cried everytime he had to take it off to take a bath... now not so much. if he wears a shirt it has to be that shirt(or bad guys as he calls it) and then about 2 or so it's off and he's free as a bird! lol Also he didn't want to potty train so i'm waiting on that but he has to wear underwear over his diaper.... actually if i let him he'd go with out a diaper but he won't use a potty... oh well when he's ready he'll be ready.

Also...Lately Sean's been tricking me into thinking he's done with naps. he's such a liar! he won't go down for a nap on some days and on those days he always passes out at like 6:30 at night. i'll let him take a cat name for about 30 min but then i wake him up and he's pissed! once i thought he was out for the night only to have him wake up at 10 ready to play and stay up til 2! I only make that mistake once!

Last but not least if there is any doubt in any of your minds that Travis is not the father this kid....well this should put all your minds at ease! lol there is no doubt who this kid's dad is....the next question is who the mother?

p.s. on a side note Sean now wakes up yelling "MOMMA! Where are you?!?!" he also says that when he finds himself alone in his room or needing to show some one a new trick. lol

PEE PEE in the POTTY?

So this is it!!! Friday is the day The Sean says GOOD BYE to the diaper! Hopefully! So i got a poster board for stickers and he picked out his underwear and we're gettin the potty today. so any tricks of the trade? i'll take whatever i can get!

He picked a winner!

This is what Sean does for school now! lol I love his face! He looks like "what's the big deal?" So yeah this is what I'm stuck with. I'm the mom with the kid who's always got a finger up his nose....you remember those kids in school don't you? I know you do!!!!

War Paint...

Today in pre-school the kids were painting the letter Ff....Nichole said she heard: "oh my eyes" and this is what she saw! hahahahaha I stoll this off her pre-school blog cuz it's way cute! it kinda reminds me of those orik(sp?) things from "Lord of the Rings." LOL i lub my baby!

kisses!

Sean's old way of giving kisses was tilting his forehead towards you to kiss. now it's on the mouth! as you can tell i'm not sure about it....i miss the old way although it is way cute when he leans over to kiss my check at night. and yes he does the "mmmmmmmmm muah" sound with each kiss. how cute is that! He crawled into bed with me last night and as he snuggled in he reached over and pull my face over to give me a kiss on the forehead. LOVE IT! he is such a little lover! lol


mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

MUwAH!